ok so i have a cousin who talks about marriage WAYED..and it always goes something like this:

• yala sheday 7ailech
• tesha6eray o get a husband
• mako a7ad in your life?
• meta betezawejain ?

and on and on and on…

so in one of our talks she asked me why I was single (keep in mind that she’s single as well) and i said that i simply haven’t found the right person yet and this might sound conceited but if i wanted to i would be married and with kids right now BUT i refuse to settle for anything less than what i have in mind…i’m NOT gonna marry some1 just to say i’m married, i would rather live alone for the rest of my life than “settle” for the next guy that comes knocking…i don’t know where ppl stand on this but i’ve said no so many times that ppl have started to call me “maghroora” ME! abai if they only knew..i do not judge ppl on family name or status, i do want a good looking husband but thats not a MUST..all i’m asking for is an educated man, some1 with goals and ambitions, some1 with a LIFE, some1 who has interests outside of work, some1 funny, kind, generous and dependable..my IDEAL is to fall in luv first but if i find these qualities in the next guy who proposes i’m not gona say no so kindly back off and stop nagging on me..i’m not in any rush to get married, i love my life, i love my job and i’m happy where i am (for now )..YES i want a husband and YES i want a family but i am not going to spend every min of my life seeking that..if it happens it happens

aaaah i feel so much better now

and how r u ?

I HATE STUDENTS

with a passion

why is the new person constantly stroking everyone’s ego? when i first started i had a few “enemies” i’m in a position “above” ppl who have been here longer and so my 1st week was..lets just say interesting..ppl were talking about how its not fair that they have been here for 3 years and i just come in and got where i am (mind u i’m not anyone’s boss or anything) i just have a “title” and my own office..THAT’S IT..i don’t see the intimidation in it…anyway, one day my boss leans in and says something to me b4 a meeting (but she was deliberately loud so that every1 in the room heard) and this is what she said “listen, i want you to know that a lot of ppl are going to be jealous because 6 months ago no1 knew u here and now ur sitting here at this table with all of us..u earned it and u have every right to be here so don’t let anyone get to u”

A7EBHA!

ever since then my “enemies” have been NICE to me and i find myself surrounded with pplwho come to me with their complaints..i do this but no1 notices and i do that but no1 appreciates and i find myself constantly reminding them that they’re doing a good job and that we appreciate having them and all that nice stuff..but why meee? i’m the new kid, I’M the one who needs to be reaffirmed..i’m always scared that i’m not doing what i’m supposed to be doing and i get anxious about my work and i get scared too, who’s gona stroke MY ego?

ok i’m done te7el6eming here’s my food diary for yesterday

21/5/08

• 8:20 1 brown rusk w/labneh + plus 1 green apple
• 3:20 johnny rockets original burger no onion no relish, 4 onion rings (i don’t eat the onion i just eat the crumbs, i KNOW i’m horrible) and shared fries
• 9:45 a large bowl of salad
• 10:20 1 kit kat stick

i know i know i was BAD..sorry tummy

• i’m in a bad mood
• nothing’s really “wrong” its just a bunch of small things that build up and make me go: ((
• i noticed that i’m getting angrier every year..temper temper temper..problem is i don’t yell or have any way of releasing this anger so i tend to grind my teeth or grab the steering wheel real tight till i feel my muscle spasm (psycho)
• been spending a lot of time with my sis (who has a one year old baby) and every day with her makes NOT want to have kids..ever
• i hate ppl who call me in the morning and expect me to “chat” (except u yazooz )
• i can’t stand ppl who come into my office without knocking
• i hate that i’m not watching any of my shows
• i hate ppl who think they have a “chance” just cause i’m nice to them
• i need to travel
• i’m sick of fake, insincere ppl
• i hate guy friends who think they have the right to be jealous when some1 grabs my attention
• i miss GOOD shopping
• i luv my parents (especially when they’re away)
• i hate it when ppl complain about me not picking up: its what i do, deal with it
• i hate that this post is doing everything i hate about blogging so i will end it NOW