why is the new person constantly stroking everyone’s ego? when i first started i had a few “enemies” i’m in a position “above” ppl who have been here longer and so my 1st week was..lets just say interesting..ppl were talking about how its not fair that they have been here for 3 years and i just come in and got where i am (mind u i’m not anyone’s boss or anything) i just have a “title” and my own office..THAT’S IT..i don’t see the intimidation in it…anyway, one day my boss leans in and says something to me b4 a meeting (but she was deliberately loud so that every1 in the room heard) and this is what she said “listen, i want you to know that a lot of ppl are going to be jealous because 6 months ago no1 knew u here and now ur sitting here at this table with all of us..u earned it and u have every right to be here so don’t let anyone get to u”

A7EBHA!

ever since then my “enemies” have been NICE to me and i find myself surrounded with pplwho come to me with their complaints..i do this but no1 notices and i do that but no1 appreciates and i find myself constantly reminding them that they’re doing a good job and that we appreciate having them and all that nice stuff..but why meee? i’m the new kid, I’M the one who needs to be reaffirmed..i’m always scared that i’m not doing what i’m supposed to be doing and i get anxious about my work and i get scared too, who’s gona stroke MY ego?

ok i’m done te7el6eming here’s my food diary for yesterday

21/5/08

• 8:20 1 brown rusk w/labneh + plus 1 green apple
• 3:20 johnny rockets original burger no onion no relish, 4 onion rings (i don’t eat the onion i just eat the crumbs, i KNOW i’m horrible) and shared fries
• 9:45 a large bowl of salad
• 10:20 1 kit kat stick

i know i know i was BAD..sorry tummy