i’m REALLY busy today just wanted to say that YAAAAY 7asan’s back! i’m keeping an attendance sheet for him during his time back so u need to help me keep him in check

• came to Fri Dinner (check)
• spent the day 3indina ams (check)

my food diary was shot to hell but here goes:

Thu 22/05/08

• 7:40 2 brown rusks w/labneh
• 11:00 2 spoons cocoa krispies no milk (BLEKH)
• 5:45 mulookheya w/white rice

Fri 23/05/08

• 9:30 choco chip pancakes
• 12:30 2 mishmishas
• 2:00 she3reya rice
• 9:00 2 pieces shish tawouk, a bowl of lentil soup

Sat 24/05/08

food mania:

• 3:15 rice w/marag la7am o bo6a6
• 9:30 spaghetti w/tomato sauce, i also had 3 bites men el chicken noodles and one spoon from 7asan’s fav tuna mayo

EXTRAORDINARY

Stroking Egos

why is the new person constantly stroking everyone’s ego? when i first started i had a few “enemies” i’m in a position “above” ppl who have been here longer and so my 1st week was..lets just say interesting..ppl were talking about how its not fair that they have been here for 3 years and i just come in and got where i am (mind u i’m not anyone’s boss or anything) i just have a “title” and my own office..THAT’S IT..i don’t see the intimidation in it…anyway, one day my boss leans in and says something to me b4 a meeting (but she was deliberately loud so that every1 in the room heard) and this is what she said “listen, i want you to know that a lot of ppl are going to be jealous because 6 months ago no1 knew u here and now ur sitting here at this table with all of us..u earned it and u have every right to be here so don’t let anyone get to u”

A7EBHA!

ever since then my “enemies” have been NICE to me and i find myself surrounded with pplwho come to me with their complaints..i do this but no1 notices and i do that but no1 appreciates and i find myself constantly reminding them that they’re doing a good job and that we appreciate having them and all that nice stuff..but why meee? i’m the new kid, I’M the one who needs to be reaffirmed..i’m always scared that i’m not doing what i’m supposed to be doing and i get anxious about my work and i get scared too, who’s gona stroke MY ego?

 

ok i’m done te7el6eming here’s my food diary for yesterday

21/5/08

• 8:20 1 brown rusk w/labneh + plus 1 green apple
• 3:20 johnny rockets original burger no onion no relish, 4 onion rings (i don’t eat the onion i just eat the crumbs, i KNOW i’m horrible) and shared fries
• 9:45 a large bowl of salad
• 10:20 1 kit kat stick

i know i know i was BAD..sorry tummy

Food Diary

20/5/08

• 7:40 1 green apple
• 9:12 2 brown rusks w/labneh
• 11:31 1 green apple
• 4:00 pop corn shrimp (appetizer) from prime and toast..shared :p and watermelon juice
• 10:00 veal scallopini, 2 kubbas, fries

a few set backs on the 2nd day but i’m trying..baby steps

 

i think i had breakfast

i had half a green apple this morning i’m gona go ahead and consider that a breakfast

i started a food diary but since i was keeping it to myself the food intake was appalling so i decided to start posting my food diary..maybe the thought of ppl reading what i put into my body will help me be good to it

SOOO

here’s yesterday’s diary 19/5/08:

• 7:30 1 brown rusk w/labneh and a green apple
• 11:30 1 green apple
• 12:30 2 brown rusks w/labneh
• 2:40 KDD sandwich ice cream
• 4:32 a bowl of lettuce w/olive oil, lemon and salt
• 7:05 white rice w/marag la7am o bo6a6, well technically marag bo6a6 since i didn’t touch the meat

so i’m not off to a good start i’m hoping to be better 2day

i had breakfast!

• i had breakfast for the first time in over 10 years…i’ve been wanting to make some changes in my lifestyle so i started with 2 steps today: i had breakfast at 7:30 AND i wore my seat belt…2 great accomplishments
• had a “client” come in to my office 2day, oh a CUTE one might i add BUT this is what i looked like: pale face, curly hair, NO makeup not a SINGLE drop of anything not even lip balm and that would have been ok on any other day bas not after a week of being sick u can just imagine how “pretty” i looked
• i’m feeling better but my tummy is still emnafsa madry shfeeha
• got my nails done yesterday and i hate the color
• our coffee boy has the american national anthem as his ring tone it KILLS me i don’t think he realizes what it is
• i looove paper shredders
• in the mood for a game: soccer, baseball, football anything i just wana go to a game
• my cousin said the following to me “etwanseen ma chenech bent et7ebeen el kora o el seyasa” i don’t know if he just insulted or complimented me
• my to do list after missing a week of work is ridiculous
• did i mention my love for paper shredders?

 

not to sound vulgar but here’s what i think of the new majles:

same shit different toilet

:(

:(

an hour after my last post my “episodes” started again..i’ve been throwing up like crazy lately and its scaring me..o the most embaressing thing is that i was on the phone with the person in charge of our lajna and she was telling me where to pick up my mandooba id..i barely had time to say hold on when everything came out and i mean everything..i think some of my organs came out (ok i know i’m disgusting but u have to share my misery)..soon after that the shooting pain in my stomach started i was squirming bamoot and it hasn’t stopped since..i haven’t slept yet..i didn;t help out with the elections..i didn’t even vote! 

i hate myself and i hate my tummy today and i feel miserable…i have been in bed all day with my trusted trash can, tissue box and constant trips to the loo: needless to say my day is CRAP

i’m sorry i let ppl down 2day 

i’m sorry i didn’t vote

i’m sorry i missed out on an important day such as 2day

 W A I 3

 

it’s 4:01 am i have to be up and out of the house in less than 3 hours to help out with elections..i’m so excited and i hope everyone’s efforts don’t go to waste especially the ppl who have been working non stop for the past few weeks..i’m new i just volunteered 3 days ago  

i hope aseel makes it even though she’s not in my district and i can’t do anything about it

as for my district, well i think 7asan will be proud to know that i changed my mind about who i’m voting for..did some more research and realized that the ppl i wanted were not that great and the ppl i didn’t want have more to offer! 

i’m off to bed will post more about the elections by the end of the day

wish me luck!

Al Malika

listening to um-kalthoum aka al malika…i LOVE this woman she is simply perfection…i’ve been listening to her since i was a child and i can never get over her voice and her strength…i think my love for her developed because of baba, i think he’s her ultimate fan he knows every single word to every single one of her songs…whenever we’re flipping through channels and she comes on i mute and give baba a pop quiz and he ALWAYS gets the song right… he can listen to part of the music, no lyrics and tell what the song is

my 1st time “listening” to um-kalthoum came through baba…he sang “enta el 7ob” to me and i fell in love…after listening to um-kalthoum myself i understood baba’s love for her..the arab world’s love to her: she is truly a QUEEN

she’s on rotana tarab right now and baba just walked in…she’s OUR bond…growing up i was so jealous that my sister spent hours talking to baba, confiding in him but i was never able to i just didn’t know how to “talk” to him…mama told baba how i felt and one day without any indication that he knew he asked if i wan ted to go for a ride i said yes…we drove around all over kuwait listening to um-kalthoum we didn’t say a word it was just the two of us and her..we would come home by the time the song was over and i was HAPPY…we bonded through her…we haven’t done that in a while but whenever she’s on we call each other or give each other a look and we know…i even called him once with an ihda’a and he was in a meeting o ma 6anashny! he listened said “ok baba” and hung up…i love him and i love her

is this post about baba or um-kalthoum? i’m lost